What life is all about

I’m troubled…I can’t think straight. It feels like I’m so down, numb and vain.

I’m crying but it feels like I’m running out of tears. My heart is hurting and feeling every hard beat as if it is being tortured. I don’t know but I feel so empty.

I know I’m not perfect but it just hurts to know that I’m slowly going back to my traumas. Life seems to be so hard and hitting hard on me. No matter how I try to avoid it I can’t seem to cope.

Heart matters are very painful that it struck you deeply.

All I want is just peace and solitude. I am a contented person. I know God loves me but it seems that today I am surrounded with sorrow, pain and doubt.

Why people aren’t contented with what they have. Why can’t they live the day without thinking of the world and crazy things.

I hate myself today…I’m so lost but I know I can overcome this…

“Do you ever dream big?”

Do I ever dream big? When I was asked for the second time around about this question I was taken aback for a while. I was forced to think and I tried to recall every possible moment of my life that would relate to the question. 

The first person who asked me this question is my former boss. While we were having a chat he suddenly asked me about it. I just simply answered, “I’m a simple contented person. I am contented with what I have and what is given to me and I think that whatever are the things that is in me and I’m enjoying at the moment is already enough and I’m happy for it.”   Well they say that to dream is free and the best things in life are free, but for me to be realistic and more practical is the best thing to approach life. You are more likely to succeed in your plans. I have goals in life but I would always try to analyze it and make it closer to reality.

It’s not a sin to dream and dream big but the thing is you should learn to analyze life, where and what are your limits, can you really make it, what are the consequences and what are your choices.

Positive thoughts on dreaming and dreaming big:

When you are in a dream you are at least able to escape the bitterness of reality. You can do whatever you want inside a dream, everything is just easy and possible.It heals your heart and heartaches for a moment which is good also. It gives you hope and strength, it allows you to move on and take a step forward because of the self confidence that it builds within you. When you dream big it and you take it into action it will never be impossible to achieve it. When you dream big sometimes you are able to let go of the negative feelings and emotions inside you. It helps you laugh and be happy. Sometimes it takes away pain and fears. There are times that you are able to mirror positive thoughts to people around you.

Dangers of Dreams:

Since dreaming is escaping from reality waking up is the hardest part. Reality is just there and upon waking up you need to cope with it. Sometimes it will be hard for you to face the reality and it causes negative effect to your life, it makes you down and frustrated. Sometimes it can even claim lives. When a person is imprisoned inside a dream it will be hard for him to recognize what is real.

Positive thoughts on Being Realistic:

When you are a realistic kind of person, you tend to be strong, you can face reality. You know what your goals are and they are clear. You are simple and can cope with unexpected things that reality brings into your life. You know how to quit because quitting is not a sign of weakness but rather an action that would take you to a new path. You are not afraid of change. You can go out and be happy and adjust easily to situations. You have positive thoughts inside you. You know how to balance life.

Coping with reality:

If you are taking reality too seriously you are sometimes misunderstood. You are prone to problems and you tend to think more which is stressfull. Sometimes being a realist may take you into a very dangerous sitaution like when you couldn’t think clearly of the solutions anymore you tend to get angry and frustrated easily. Sometimes other people are becoming suicidal.

Each one of them have their pros and cons. I am writing this article because when my husband asked me  if I ever do dream big. I tried to analyze what kind of person I am. Do I really dream big or I’m a realist. It is then that I realized I am both. Sometimes I am a dreamer and there are times that I’m realistic. I think it’s just balance.

I also wrote this because of a friend who unexpectedly came into me and cried for help. She told me she was afraid of change. She was afraid to go out of her closet. She just happen to have more fears in herself. What can I do? I just advised her to move on and not to be afraid. I told her that God is there and God is just waiting for her to take action. I told her not to regret and decide  and focus on her dreams. Whatever it is that she wants to achieve she should focus and she should try to face reality because that’s life. Taking the first step is the best and be sure that it’s one step at a time.

I was surprised to learn that she was able to exmplore herself now and she’s just happy that she was able to go out of her shell. Now she’s inspired and more lively and more focus. I am praying she can make it.

On the other hand. I felt so sad about the victims of typhoon Ondoy in Manila. I am praying for the people there. May they be blessed with positive outlook in life, may they never lose hope and hopefully they will be able to surpass their trials and above all may they never ever forget that God is there. A trial where I’ve been before.

God Thank you for all of your showered blessings! Please help those people! I know You are just there.

Turning 24 is never a joke!

Well, life must go on!

Today I am very, very thankful to God for giving me the most wonderful birthday gift. LIFE!!! I’m very glad I still have the grasp for breath, I’m glad I’m still here alive and kickin’, doing things that I believe are right. 24 years of life here on earth is never a joke!

Yes! it’s never a joke at all. Another year has been added to me. Yeah! I’m continuously growing old but not tall! Heheheheh! But what really makes sense is that I’ve spent my life in purpose! Growing means  a lot of things for me. It’s an accomplishment! It is unbelievable that no matter how hard things are we are able to surpass them with great strength. I’ve been into starvation, job loss, depression, pain, sickness, disasters and a lot more, they’re so hard to mention and to remember but what matters most to me today is that I’m still here. I am once again given the chance to face a new fight! A fight for a life that is worth livin’ for.

Well what really are the things that I considered as my accomplishments? Hmmnnn…First and foremost I know that a lot of people are losing hope because of  depression, negative things and energy that are entering into thier lives, economic crisis, diseases, disasters and calamities, death of loved ones and a lot more! Honestly I’ve been into this situations for so many times but what made me strong, which I considered as my accomplishment is my faith! God is there! He will never let you down, just ask, pray and be patient and surely you’ll never regret! Having God in my heart is a great achievement! With him I can think clearly and never lose hope! Next thing is my family, they are my inspiration and when I’m down I would always think about them. It is never a secret to all that I came from a poor family! We’ve been into a lot of tough times, my Mom who is a single parent have contributed a lot to my growth and strength. She had shown a lot of great things and bravery to us in times of crisis. She’s my idol because she’s very strong and never gives up! My sister who just graduated into college with honors because of her dedication to her studies is an inspiration too! My little brothers who always makes us laugh with thier jokes and funny humors. My grandma, my aunts, cousins, nephews and nieces are all inspiration for me to move on and I think it’s an accomplishment that I am becoming more stronger and growing more mature each day because of them.  Talking about gwroing old and mature another great achievement of my life is my marriage! My husband who’s always been there, supporting me in all of my endeavors. He’s one of the greatest gift on my birthday, with his love and security I can feel only happiness and love but no regrets for having him. Though I never dreamed of getting married and having a husband I can say God is a really good planner! I say bravo to God for giving me this man! He rocks! Sister Laarni is one big influence and inspiration too! I love you sis! Of course I would never forget those people who were there and made me paved my way from the very rocky roads of life going to a more smoother and calm ocean. They’re the one who’s also behind my success and failures. They maybe the antagonist or protagonist in the movie of my life but they’re well appreciated! Thank you you all made me grow and accomplish things.

My career has been the most crucial part of my life as I grow older. I’m thankful that today I am blessed with good and great people around! Having a great Company and a great boss is a wonderful gift! They are those who believes in my talent and capacity to do things! I may never be the perfect worker but I’m always thankful they’ve given me the chance to prove my worth. Thanks guys for continuously believing and trusting in my capacity! Truly I am blessed for having you! You are but one of my greatest achievement in life!

My motto still never changes ” The greatest regrets in out lives are the risks that we did not take”! I’m hoping to achieve more in the coming years! I’m 24 today but tomorrow is another day! Another new day to face life!

Success for me doesn’t mean having everything around but having people that envelopes you with love. My wheel of fortune will continue to move-on may it be up or down I’m never worried because  I’ll let God drive with me!

God bless to all of the people in my life ! Thank You God you’re always the best!

Who Loves Me, Who Loves Me Not…

You can’t please everybody, yes that’s a fact.

There are two kinds of people in this article, those who loves and those who loves me not.

For those who loves me not, thank you. You’re a tasty spice in my life. You’ve served your purpose.Indeed you made an amazing turning point in my life. I love that! It’s a challenge. Thank you for making me strong and for chasing me to find and conquer the answers of life!

For those who loves me, a hundred thanks! Bravo! You’re the best for showing me the world where I can be myself with no pretension. Thank you for waking me up. Thank you for everything especially for loving, caring and understanding me. You’ll always be here in my heart no matter what!

Thanks God! For this two spices of life. Indeed, You’re the greatest challenger of all and above that the Greatest love that grows inside me!

I love Grandma!

I miss my Grandma so much!

It’s been 8months and I haven’t been able to go home to my hometown, because of busy schedules or other circumstances that hinders me to do so.

It’s really sad since I miss my grandma. She’s another best mom of the world just like my mom. Humble, goodhearted, kind and very loving.

I’m very much worried about her, I was even able to send her support for the last few months since I resigned on my last job. But another thing that I really wanted to do is to see her and hug her so tight.

Grandma! I really miss you so much, If only I could…

I know God will always guide you. I love you!

What am I thinking?

Pictorials at home hehehehe…No one knows if what am I thinkin’ here…No one will ever know! Bleeeeeeeeee!!

I’m a flower…

What These Orchids Say About You

You are exotic and intricately beautiful. You possess a unique grace that’s both delicate and strong. You are thoughtful and refined. You are the definition of class.

To love for me is this..,

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time. You give and take equally in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you’re with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don’t try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren’t loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

My Name Means…

What Glenda Means

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don’t appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don’t get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality. You are usually the best at everything … you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic “Type A” personality.

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